Iv had the worst week with lee, all we have done is argue and hurt eachother! when the weekend came it was good i was coming home to have a break, we ended up splitting up and everything it was horrible!! iv had such a horrid week!
We thought we had sorted things saturday night, i went to manchester and it was shit dint get drunk and ended up looking after my mate whos birthday it was. Anyway me n lee supposedly worked things out but it was still shit when i went over on sunday. Monday we had a massive row when he was taking me home and i just cried and cried and cried in the car. Eventually i wanted to get out the car so i did and he came after me appologised and we got back in. We had said it was over by this point and as far as i was concerned it was, hence me crying so much. it was horrible. we ended up stopping and listening to stupid sad songs which made us more upset. We got out the car had a big hug and a kiss but still to me it was over.
We got back to mine and i was still cryin he stayed a bit then decided to go, he left me cryin. it was awful. i couldnt stopped. I then made the biggest mistake of my life but im not going into that. i was textin lee on his way home tellin him to come back! i loved him etc etc. he was adament not to come back. Then when he got to manchester, near home i asked him once mroe to come back and he said yes.lol he drove all the way back from manchester to see me. i couldnt believe my luck! it took him about an hour to get back, my heart was going wild, butterflies i was hyper! i had a shower to take up time, when he got here i ran up to the car and gave him a big hug. things still werent right but he was here. we had tea blah blah n chatted then went to bed, we argued again i couldnt believe it! i was so fed up with arguin!!!!
THEN... we started talking and things changed. we told eachother everythin, how we felt blah blah and everything vchanged. we started talking bout our future together and stuff and said how we both wanted it to work. sooooooooooooo..we decided to start a fresh, completely forget our past and be completely honest with eachother. it was such a nice night. the next mornin i dint want him to go, we were all luved up it was great. BUT when he left there was something wrong. i was so worried but thought maybe its cos he has to leave me. he left anyway and i started thinkin bout how we were going to change. Then the worst thing happened. lee had read my messages on my fone and found somethin really bad. i knew it was over. i burst into tears and appologised there wasnt much else i could say. i spent over £10 on credit to him yesterday sayin sorry and i would change n its a fresh start! he told me i had hurt him too much this time i had lied too much it was over he could never forgive me. i was gutted. i was shopping with my mum carolyn and amy. i was chasing amy round tryin to take my mind off it. last night he sent me an email, it was harsh but true. id hurt him more than ever and he couldnt forgive me. i didnt deserve being forgiven what i had done was horrible! we spoke and tole eachother we loved eachother needed eachother but still he was havin none of it. he did calm down a bit but i still thought iv no chance IV ruined it like i ruin everything! he said he was going to talk to his mum cos he was so confused. A little later he text me sayin do u want me to ring u later, of course i did si when he rang he sounded a bit happier. i was glad for him i dint want him to be sad. i asked him if he was ok he said yeah i said why he said " cos i want to be with you" my face lit up completely i was smilin from ear to ear! i was the luckiest girl in the world! his mum had told him to follow his heart and it brought him to me!!! i couldnt believe it, he said he loved me and wanted to be with me so he would take me back but i had to change and make it work. he dint want to be hurt any more! i knoew all this and had been thinkin all day what to do to change!
SO as of now, i am a completely new and changed girlfriend, iv reaslied that lee is the only lad i want and need and im going to do everythin to prove it to him! I love him with my whole heart, trust him and car about him more than anything! he means the world to me and i dont know what id do without him! hes the best. THank you baby for givin me another chance i promise you will not regret it!!!
the only down side is i wont see him till saturday!!!! =[
lee i love you and im sorry so so sorry!!!!!
apart from all that not been up to much! me n lee went this place called the crocky trail with his mate steven and we dint pay it was a laugh it has like rope swings and stuff! we also went waterworld in stoke (was near u ley ley lol) and that was well good! slides and stuff lol and we had fun in the changin rooms ;) definatly goin back there again!!!! and we have made loads of plans for summer and our future!!! =] i also drove his car lol i wasnt THAT bad but wasnt good either lol! =]